Happy New Year people! In honor of this "new year, new me" trend I decided to make a new goal. This year I decided to start it of with a larger goal then I had last year. My next goal of the up coming nine weeks is to read at least 5 books even though I will no longer be in English. I tend not to read unless I have too so this is something new for me. I am going to continue with reading 30 minutes a night on top of whatever I have to read for school and trying to finish at least 200 pages a week. Let's see if I can do it. :)
I'm reading Heart of Darkness by: Joseph Conrad. This book is a story within a story. It's about a man name Marlow who is telling the story of his voyage on the Congo river. He travels to the inner station to bring supplies to an ill but wise ivory trader (Kurtz) but his shipped was wrecked and he suspects the Manger to be the cause because the Manger fears Kurtz will take his job. This seems odd to me because how does the manger of a massive company be jealous of an ivory trader? Why would someone ever let another die to keep their own job? Jealousy is found everywhere in everyone. It's okay to admit you get jealous, I know I get jealous of people sometimes. This is the darkness inside people that make them do things they wouldn't normally do. For example, the Manger in this book is so jealous of Kurtz wisdom he fears he'll lose his job to Kurtz. Now if the Manger wasn't jealous he wouldn't have wrecked Marlow's ship but that wasn't the case. Kurtz said earlier a wise man, he was worshiped by the native Congo people (who didn't want Marlow to take Kurtz away) and was admired by his disciple. Now is the light in people, admiration. This is like jealously except you don't feel insure about yourself but you inspire to be like the person you admire. Admiring someone shows your good of character. It shows that you're comfortable with yourself enough to appreciate others gifts.
If I'm being completely honest I didn't quite get this book because it didn't make sense. There were a couple of words on a page I had to take the time and look up because the paragraph didn't make sense without the definition. I took this book as a challenge nonetheless and it took awhile to finish because like I didn't understand it at some points. However, I am happy I finished it because it's the first book on the AP list I have finished on my own.